James Arson begins to go through the stage of confronting the thought that his newfound confidence has not actually improved his insecurities and inability to handle high pressure things.
lyrics
Chorus: Cody Brooks
Something missing inside my life,
Something missing inside my life,
they have what I want and it makes me trite
I hate you so much your who I despise,
Verse 1: Kekoa Siu
Life change you got pressure to live up to,
And problems you’d always run away, give up, lose,
Yet people say “O you’re so confident, look how you’ve improved”,
When I’m facing the demons I had in June,
You’d sit in the depression just to get this expression,
But nothing came out, no lyrics or chord progressions,
And if you can’t get over this, James,
Well then you’ll be over with, So suffer the pain,
You ungrateful kid, you ungrateful scum,
You’re not working hard, you don’t live off crumbs,
I need to receive attention so I can see myself in three dimensions,
‘Cause if self-love is currency, I’m dead broke,
Pretended you were confident to try to get known,
And all your music is trash like Yoko Ono,
And if I wake up next to you I’m going solo,
Chorus 2: Cody Brooks
Something missing inside my life,
Something missing inside my life,
they have what I want and it makes me trite
I hate you so much your who I despise,
Something missing inside my life,
Something missing inside my life,
they have what I want and it makes me trite
I hate you so much your who I despise,
Verse 2: Kekoa Siu
Truly there’s no hope for me,
no goals to seek,
So I might as well OD,
I mean,
I’m ashamed of how I framed that I could paint this picture,
I must be a failure, I didn’t make these figures
from a label‘Because only those who deserve are able
And since I’m handicapped, while I’m stuck in a cradle
Destined to be out-rapped, never a staple
Trying to fake it as a big fish ended fatal
Avoiding Cain in vain attempts to be Able
Thought I saw it all, but I was stuck reading Braille
Hate push my brain cause I was lacking control
My heart diamonds, I’m who I can’t console
credits
from The Life And Times Of James Arson,
released January 2, 2022
Written and Produced by Kekoa Siu
Mixed and Mastered by Kekoa Siu and Koa Siu
Featuring Cody Brooks.
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